I'm lost in my own world

All my feelings start to fade,

I don’t feel pain or have happiness to trade.

I feel so numb when badly want to touch,

You hiding from me is bit too much.

 I have lost grip of the reality I live,

 I’m sure you can forget but not forgive.

 Everything will change when time drift away,

 Hope it’s not my last good-bye that I would say.

 With thoughts of my dream girl,

 I'm lost in my own world.

 Now my smile is a mask always I wear.

 Words are my feeling is a secret I swear
©Irfy

How much you mean to me

Whenever I want to say how much you mean with words to express,

Screw that battery that always interferes between us.

I had lot of things in my mind for you to talk about.

I go stoned and speechless with my chance inside i cry out.

It so wrong to give you a ring to make you mine,

I think it’s the only way to show the taken sign.

Every second i miss you within this heart I hold you so close.

I love you more when I know you miss me the most,

Want to spend rest of my day with you,

Wish that my dream of you would come through.

I always go mad when I don’t get hear that voice.

Sometimes other than missing I have no choice.

                

The truth i wanna say

i want to say you this.

Count the stars then you will know how much i miss,

Say me a way for this feeling to hide,

I know it’s not that easy to control feeling that we can’t decide.

I just want stay away from you,

How can I deny when it’s the only star i see so true.

Want to share my entire secret with you,

One of the secret is you that’s sure without a clue.

I think this is what you called silent love,

Are you my angel from above?

Want you to be my crying shoulder,

With those arms warm me when I’m colder.

Let me see what’s in those eyes,

I won’t blush and fill my stomach with butterflies,

Don’t want to let you go.

With feeling I silently grow.

Crush is always a crush that fades away,

I can’t let that happen when you make me smile on your own way.

This feeling makes me feel insecure

Sometimes i feel what is this feeling is about you,

Kind of frighten to say when it just new.

Words running in my head with your thoughts, keep me insecure,

Until I say you are my only chance for my cure.

The vision in my dreams is so clear,

Its pure happiness when you appear.

Wish could see the smile on that face,

Want your care and love to fill my lonely space.

I feel lost to show care so much,

For the person I feel I can trust.

Want you to know how I really feel.

But it’s so hard to find it so real,

I know its just illusion I see,

And it’s the only place smiling I can be.

Love and Lust It’s not one neither same.

The truth between heart and soul is just lame.

It’s not one neither same,

Want to take my time to know you

Not to just say I Love you

Want to feel the love in those eyes

Not to hold me with lies

Want to last forever,

Not to fade in time and say let’s get over.

Want to be the one and only to admirer.

Not to live with a mind full of desire.

Want to be lost in that smile

Not to test those lips for a while.

Want to wipe those tears with a little care

Not to say I have no time to spare.

Want to love for who you are always to me

Not to be the one that others want to be

Want to build this bond with love and trust

Not to ignite inner feeling of lust,

Love and lust seem to be confused about,

Choosing lust over love is not the way out.
©Irfy