There is so much you don’t know

There is so much you don’t know,

It’s so limited for your eyes that I could show.

I trust the meaning of affection,

With my own  belief and perception.

Life without family and friends will be so bitter to walk on our own,

But there will be one to choose me at my worst hold me when I walk alone.

At times I don’t accept anything except call of this heart,

And end up losing everything even the one I loved the most to be far apart.

Voice around me whisper  take your decision and rest just neglect,

No matter how tough is to survive life is about facing with no regret.

The scars and bruise  as I climb the ladder of fate,

Would wear them all and stand with  pride  to fight hate.

I may be fearless and and will be the one to wipe every tear,

Inside I am that weak man who lives in fear.

I hear many voices of advice to make me strong,

But something it's not that easy to forget as only memories takes me back where I  belong.

I see a desert where I see no sun except  the dark sky,

Misery makes me lost weak and reason for my tears I cry.

With all this I disguise the real me,

I feel nowhere to be found with answers I disagree.

Sometimes I wonder and I go back in time

And come back with pain and realise just done a victimless crime.

To be loved was like losing the ones I love the most.

Wish I could hold the one I love forever so close.

This sorrow is sad but true,

From my childhood I ask God why you.

Irfy©