There is so much you don’t know

There is so much you don’t know,

It’s so limited for your eyes that I could show.

I trust the meaning of affection,

With my own  belief and perception.

Life without family and friends will be so bitter to walk on our own,

But there will be one to choose me at my worst hold me when I walk alone.

At times I don’t accept anything except call of this heart,

And end up losing everything even the one I loved the most to be far apart.

Voice around me whisper  take your decision and rest just neglect,

No matter how tough is to survive life is about facing with no regret.

The scars and bruise  as I climb the ladder of fate,

Would wear them all and stand with  pride  to fight hate.

I may be fearless and and will be the one to wipe every tear,

Inside I am that weak man who lives in fear.

I hear many voices of advice to make me strong,

But something it's not that easy to forget as only memories takes me back where I  belong.

I see a desert where I see no sun except  the dark sky,

Misery makes me lost weak and reason for my tears I cry.

With all this I disguise the real me,

I feel nowhere to be found with answers I disagree.

Sometimes I wonder and I go back in time

And come back with pain and realise just done a victimless crime.

To be loved was like losing the ones I love the most.

Wish I could hold the one I love forever so close.

This sorrow is sad but true,

From my childhood I ask God why you.

Irfy©

I may be broken into pieces

Choosing the right one is the hardest decision we take,

Being with no one is better than the wrong one in life would be so fake.

Hiding from the world that should know,

Feeling  for you silently I grow.

In that instance I just give out my heart away,

Hoping that love and care will find on its way.

There are times I go down with wet eyes

It's weird in life of the guys

It's better to show the true feeling ,

Than living a life with weakness has no meaning.

I believe I have a sensitive side,

Which shows that I have a heart to love you with pride.

I may be broken into pieces but believe that I will find the one,

Fighting all my negative thoughts away  until  I feel  that I have won.

The truth when the feeling of being alone that I should accept in life,

There is always someone out there to love me who I would call my wife.

When you close your eyes.

When you close your eyes.

So many things seem so surprising

When I close mine

I just go beyond time.

I see myself, in a land of fate
Far from sea shore I see a flowery gate.
As I walk by the shore .
Hoping to go through without a key

As I approached, i was surprised to see
A red rose surrounded by a garden full of black roses and bees
My only intention to get the red rose was my destiny
As I walked through with the pain of thorns and feel like a felony.

Then I realised, to achieve something special,
It's like falling in love with an angel from hell.
I’m bleeding so that I just could get that special rose,
No matter what happens its me, fate had chosen and knows.

Life is full of ups and downs,
When I get to hold the red rose ,all the black roses turn into butterflies fly around.
It was the most amazing thing I ever saw,
They disappeared in the sky with the brightest glow.

As I close my eyes and open them again,
Left with no rose but a chain.
It was a memory of someone I know,
And the memories just preserved and never can forgo. ©Irfy

Vision of dreams seems so unclear,

Vision of dreams seems so unclear,
Is it something that tells me not to fear.
It fades away when I find the reason behind,
I wake up realizing this is not one of a kind.

I live in place with sorrow and pain,
Without an answer driving me lost and insane.
Something is missing over my  darkest  nights.
Left all alone figuring what's right.

If this is how I end with my reality,
Losing the one who I care is a no sense of morality.
I don’t want to take my moment for granted.
Knowing the value of memories  is worth more than surviving with hatred,

Who walks into my life if fate can decide,
I decide who I will let to walk out, i let to stay and i refuse to let go is my pride.

Life had its own fate as I grow.

What a busy, tiring and boring Day

Oh my God it’s my Birthday.

Thanks all for wishing me.

Special moment preserved in my memory.

                                                                   

Candles on my cake surround with cheer

An addition candle makes me older year by year.

From the day I was born until now.

You by my side, this is my vow.

I don’t need a birthday song

To keep this life warming life long

Those love and hug means a lot.

True friend s is never in my blind spot.

I wish everything fades to gray

And turn back time to the choice of my way.

To see the moment before I saw this world

My angels hold me like a special pearl.

Life had its own fate as I grow.

Up’s and down in life was another show.

They say wishes on every birthday can be fulfilled

As a kid toys was all I need, now it’s only you indeed

Whatever with past has gone.

The best is yet to rise like sun of the dawn

Mistake you make judging me with my appearance,

I’m just six with eighteen years of experience.

©Irfy