There is so much you don’t know

There is so much you don’t know,

It’s so limited for your eyes that I could show.

I trust the meaning of affection,

With my own  belief and perception.

Life without family and friends will be so bitter to walk on our own,

But there will be one to choose me at my worst hold me when I walk alone.

At times I don’t accept anything except call of this heart,

And end up losing everything even the one I loved the most to be far apart.

Voice around me whisper  take your decision and rest just neglect,

No matter how tough is to survive life is about facing with no regret.

The scars and bruise  as I climb the ladder of fate,

Would wear them all and stand with  pride  to fight hate.

I may be fearless and and will be the one to wipe every tear,

Inside I am that weak man who lives in fear.

I hear many voices of advice to make me strong,

But something it's not that easy to forget as only memories takes me back where I  belong.

I see a desert where I see no sun except  the dark sky,

Misery makes me lost weak and reason for my tears I cry.

With all this I disguise the real me,

I feel nowhere to be found with answers I disagree.

Sometimes I wonder and I go back in time

And come back with pain and realise just done a victimless crime.

To be loved was like losing the ones I love the most.

Wish I could hold the one I love forever so close.

This sorrow is sad but true,

From my childhood I ask God why you.

Irfy©

I may be broken into pieces

Choosing the right one is the hardest decision we take,

Being with no one is better than the wrong one in life would be so fake.

Hiding from the world that should know,

Feeling  for you silently I grow.

In that instance I just give out my heart away,

Hoping that love and care will find on its way.

There are times I go down with wet eyes

It's weird in life of the guys

It's better to show the true feeling ,

Than living a life with weakness has no meaning.

I believe I have a sensitive side,

Which shows that I have a heart to love you with pride.

I may be broken into pieces but believe that I will find the one,

Fighting all my negative thoughts away  until  I feel  that I have won.

The truth when the feeling of being alone that I should accept in life,

There is always someone out there to love me who I would call my wife.

When you close your eyes.

When you close your eyes.

So many things seem so surprising

When I close mine

I just go beyond time.

I see myself, in a land of fate
Far from sea shore I see a flowery gate.
As I walk by the shore .
Hoping to go through without a key

As I approached, i was surprised to see
A red rose surrounded by a garden full of black roses and bees
My only intention to get the red rose was my destiny
As I walked through with the pain of thorns and feel like a felony.

Then I realised, to achieve something special,
It's like falling in love with an angel from hell.
I’m bleeding so that I just could get that special rose,
No matter what happens its me, fate had chosen and knows.

Life is full of ups and downs,
When I get to hold the red rose ,all the black roses turn into butterflies fly around.
It was the most amazing thing I ever saw,
They disappeared in the sky with the brightest glow.

As I close my eyes and open them again,
Left with no rose but a chain.
It was a memory of someone I know,
And the memories just preserved and never can forgo. ©Irfy